Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Kicking The Clouds Away

Some days, I feel like I'm walking around under my own personal cloud. The last few days have been like that. So, it might not have been the best idea to head over today to the National Police in Fuengirola to pick up my new residency card (replacing the one I lost when I lost my wallet... click here for that story).

WISTERIA (AND A COUPLE OF CLOUDS)
OVER PLAZA DE LA CONSTITUCIÓN.

Although I was supposed to leave my brain at home (and did not), I'm not going to sit here and whine about the unpleasant half hour I spent there. It was only a half hour. OK. Except that I was required to provide a new photo with my paperwork for my replacement card. (It was an improvement over my original photo, which I hated.) However, my new card has the same old photo as before.

JUST FLOWERS, NO CLOUDS... FOR THE MOMENT.

But still, the half-hour at the police station was followed by a half-hour walk home under vividly blue and sunny skies. There was so much beauty, which I tried to appreciate. It didn't work. Well, it worked. But not for long. By the time I arrived home for a late lunch, I had a very dark cloud over my head. I'm just sure the sun was shining on everyone else.

ONE HOVERING CLOUD BEFORE SUNSET.

Whatever I could possibly think of to complain about right now is absurd. Big deal. But, when that cloud hangs over my head, the smallest thing seems impossible to manage. The smallest mistake or accident is a tragic character flaw. Like dropping a spatula on the floor while I was washing dishes. ('You idiot!') Or finding another empty bottle on the counter after I sealed up the recycling. ('Dammit!') But the fact that I'm telling you about this idiocy means I'm coming around. San Geraldo and I had a good talk tonight (which always helps) and, no matter what the weather is like tomorrow, I'm confident the sun will be shining... directly over my head (and I hope over everyone else's).


If I could kick like this, it would all be so much better...

11 comments:

  1. Good that you succeeding in kicking those clouds away, Mitchell. You are so correct in talking about it to San Geraldo. Isn't it great to have someone who will listen and empathize.
    Isn't it interesting how we can be so hard on ourselves over things that in the whole 'scheme of things' in life are quite trivial......been there so many times. Take care.

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    1. Jim:
      Sometimes, as you know, nothing helps. But talking about it doesn't hurt. Empathy is everything. And San Geraldo can be a real sweetheart. A much better day today. Thanks!

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  2. I wish that Jerry had a blog, too. I'd love to know him better -- it's really something to know that another person can help talk you through those cloud moments. One day, Jerry ought to do a guest-blogger post :)

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    1. Judy:
      No way I'm passing the keyboard to San Geraldo. He'll just make things up.

      But, you would love him, I'm sure! (He always reads my blog and the comments and he already loves you.)

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  3. The weather looks delightful. More wisteria photos please.

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    1. Andrew:
      The day was truly beautiful. I'll see what I can do about the wisteria photos. Wish I could share the fragrance!

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  4. At least you are not having extra depression with seasonal affective disorder!
    the sunshine where you love is magnificent! I am so sorry you have been having more of these problems. I see it in my son. But really glad you can talk to San Geraldo about it, and really glad that you can find things like this terrific video to cheer up with. I love it!

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    1. Kristi:
      You're so right. When we lived in the Northeastern US, winters could be really, really rough. So sorry your son has issues with depression. After all this time, I know I'll survive and I have mostly wonderful days. But, that doesn't help when the cloud is hovering. If he'd ever like to talk with someone who's survives and usually thrives despite these days, let him know I'd be happy to hear from him.

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  5. So sorry to hear you're plagued by these dark moments. Thank God you have San Geraldo to help you get through them.

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    1. Stephen:
      It's wonderful to have someone empathetic to talk things over with. And it's wonderful to have, specifically, San Geraldo. Thanks!

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